sighs... i was actually in quite a good mood today in sch and all, but somehow it has soured...

slept at 2+ last nite chatting with my WTA World friends... it was fun and all, but i'm having a hangover of sorts, probably due to the lack of sleep? ;) haha...

in the morning it drizzled again, but i didn't care, and made full use of my PE lesson, hitting against the wall. was trying to work on my forehand - and it seemed better. anyway, then boring lessons as usual, and i just left quite promptly after school cuz i was tired... :P had a nice haircut, and now, my dye job is showing cuz my hair is thinner. its got a nice blondish brown look... i like it! :D too bad i think the hairdresser wun be here much longer... i'll miss the convenience and the nice hair dressers there... :(

after not playing w my coach for sometime, i decided to go back to him to work on a few things cuz my game's been declining. and shit, it sure didn't make me feel good. its gotta be the worse i've played in quite sometime. i think almost half the balls flew long or hit the net. maybe 3 days of hitting wet and heavy balls has affected my rhythm... :( whatever, am not happy abt it...

currently in a pensive mood... a lot more these days. prefer more silence. quite a huge change... maybe i know y, maybe i dun. haha. i hope i dun live to regret the decisions i'm making now. i've regretted some things i did last year, and even some things i did recently. i used to be so sure of everything i did, and i never looked back. how things have changed... pathetic.

anyway, i'm currently thinking tt, even though our society makes us seem like we are very social creatures, deep down inside, are we really? in our frenzy in applying for unis, and thinking of prospective jobs, how many of us actually considered anything else other than ourselves? i guess its easier for me to pretend to be non chalant i guess. easier for me to interact w everyone around me.

i do like change. but i dun want somethings to change, not the friendships i've forged, the pple i've got to know. and i'm going to lose it all so soon. its scary... haha.

and talking to some pple abt their love lifes, somewhat made me realised tt despite everyone around me, tt make me happy, all the things around me, tt make me happy, there's still something missing. the sunset today was gorgeous, orange and purplish. but too bad, there was no one there to share it w me. when will it be my turn for tt special someone to find me?